CURRENTLY...

 2025-01-26                  6:09PM

Today is the final day before I officially graduate NEETdom!! Hurray..?
Nervous is an understatement to how I feel right now, and its far too late to back out. Basically what I registered for is an accelerated college course. It'll take less than a year to complete, but has a scheduled class every weekday to make up for the time crunch. It'll be intense and hard, and I especially loathe the expectation of waking up early in the morning— I'm a noon/evening girlie through and through, and I'm honestly scared of people who prefer the mornings. Sure they're beautiful and I love a good sunrise, but I also like falling back asleep and waking up at my own pace. Alas, if I'm to escape the clutches of NEETdom, fixing my sleep schedule is one of the first of many obstacles to overcome. Although I'm lucky to have weekends off, I can't guarantee I'll be free on those days with the looming posibility of homework and studies to cram.
I just hope I could at least cram in some break time to work on site stuff and set up my alternate webpage for general content. I try to refrain from posting too much about personal stuff on JUNKUMORI since I'd much prefer to talk about my hobbies rather than mundane activities that aren't too exciting. That aside, I'll be very busy these few months, I've cancelled my XIV sub for the time being since the USD to CAD exchange rate has been abysmal these past months and I can't divert my focus on an mmo, possibly one of the worst genres of videogames to get into admist a strict time schedule. I think I'll pick up reading more books to fill the missing time from videogame abstaining, currently I'm reading a book about scientific facts of the mundane things that surround us, such as the science of why a buttered piece of toast always lands butter side down, or the mathematical abilities of animals. Its been quite a fascinating read so far, and it makes good fun facts to break the ice in conversations (not that I've been in much these days, I'll admit I was teetering onto full hikkiomoridom until my improntu decision to go back to college swiftly put a close to it). I've been mostly reading non-fiction since fanfics have scratched my fiction itch and are much more accessible; in fact I was pleased to discover that my library book has automatically renewed and I don't have to worry about an overdue book in my record, how convenient! One of my goals of the year is to get an e-reader, reading on a tiny flip phone screen hasn't done wonders to my eyes. I especially want to avoid using my cellphone since its incredibly diffcult to control the urge to mindlessly scroll. I might opt for getting one second hand, though if I come accross one in-person I'd settle for that instead, trying not to buy too many packages this year (immediately failed, impulse bought a thermal printer and I hope to make a journal post of all my prints soon)

 2025-01-23                  4:59PM

I finally got my status.cafe email! I opened it up, decided to go ahead of myself and code the style for my page... until it dawned on me— every post I create pops up on the latest tab and I have no way of toggling this feature off. Hell fucking no! Until theres an option to turn that shit off I'll hold off from using the site for the time being. I'll just cobble up some knock off version of it via HTML and do it the old fashioned way with good ol' paragraph elements.

As for what to develop next.. I think I'll get started on making the journal!
..Alright! I'll admit I'm putting off making the fangirl pages— y'know the actual bread and butter for my website, and I'll preface that I want to create a unique layout for each of them that isnt just the standard lace box that my current pages have. Along with that I also want to make unique layout for my OTP/Yume pages! A week straight of non-stop coding has fried my brain and I struggle to wrack my brain into designing fun layouts for them.. THE HORROR!! For the time being the Journal will probably look a little boring, which scorns me since I've seen so many fun and unique journal/diary pages from other webpages! I feel like I can always do better and that theres something lacking about my site.. but whatever!

Webpage woes aside, as my site finally comes together I've thought about creating a badge and maybe even join some webrings! And then I realized, I would have to put myself out there! I'll be on a members list, with every freaky trope that I'm into neatly listed beside my kawiwi chiikawa themed badge! No way! Im scared! I'm very comitted to my opinions, and I don't fear retribution enough to censor what I say or feel like— its other people getting slack for even assocating with me that I fear the most. I go out of my way to block off every social aspect to having a neocities page, but I wouldn't wish for someone to do the same just to interact with my webpage. And as much as I want to gush about the neat sites I've come across, I don't want them to be icked out that they're on a crazy fangirl's blog! So for the time being I'll hold off from making social connections until I've completed my fangirl pages; I want viewers to decide for themselves if they wish to associate with me even through all the batshit insane things I'm into.

With the way I'm going about this it sounds like I'm into shit that would land me on an FBI watchlist, but I'm simply taking precautions since I have been dogpiled and harassed in the past for some of the things I would post about on social media; even if they were all for fun and within the realm of fiction! I know I emphasized it a lot on my page but I will say it again, I literally do not care what themes and tropes you chose to explore in fiction (as long as its legal ofc) and I trust most people to have the reading comprehension and maturity to explore these tropes with tact and care.
Ah, this blog entry is going on way longer than it should be, and I shall close it off with this: Please curate your own internet experience, and if you dont like it, dont read it!

 2025-01-22                  2:30AM

Today I decided to take a break from coding new pages and chose to focus on optimizing the existing assets on my site. (which I've come to discover is really bad... I showed codding affie the file size for the background and they audibly said "oh no")
Photoshop has a nifty feature that lowers the image size by simplifying the colours and other technical stuff without compromising the quality, but even then after a bunch of tweaking and pass throughs, the smallest the file managed to get is 200 KB. Still large but its a miles better improvement from the original size which was a whopping 1200 KB.
Yeah... and I was wondering why the webpage was taking a billion years to load.

As I'm reviewing my pages and tweaking things here and there I noticed that I was missing a lot of favourite series and fandoms in my about page. In the end I did decide to hold off from adding them since I intend to only put up content that I've actually played/watched so visitors don't get their hopes up when they ask me about it LOL.
What can I say, I'm easily influenced by good art— I could be "into" a series for years and not played/seen a single second of the source material... (Something I hypocritically say that I dislike, but at least I don't pretend to be a know it all! I just like the cool art!)

I also finally got the status.cafe email and I was worried that it would take as long as a week to recieve. I wont be adding it straight away just yet since I hope to finish the optimization process first; I have to do things one at a time lest I get overwhelmed and run away from the whole thing entirely!

As I conclude my blogpost for the day, ive realized...
holy shit! I talk a lot! Wasn't this supposed to be a miniblog?? If this is whats considered short what the hell are the journal entries going to look like?! And to be fair I think these first couple of posts will be wordy. I'm incredibly pent up from 280 word limits and when I quickly reactivated my old account to get some pictures here and there my photo gallery was 80% comprised of me writing way beyond the word limit. This site has truly affirmed my decisions to quit for good and move to a personal site instead, I feel so free typing my heart out not having to worry about splitting sentences into multiple posts.
IM CRINGE AND FREE!!!!!

 2025-01-22                  3:24AM

The Miniblog is finally complete! Its one of the first things I wanted to work on ASAP after I finished the mainpage + about since I tend to yap a lot and I'd prefer if the journal was more put together. (Which I dislike doing, I'm bad at writing non-casual paragraphs of text...)
I hope the miniblog is a more comfortable place to ramble about my thoughts. I still have a posting habit from years on social media so hopefully I can do short burst posts once I finally get my status.cafe verification. From what I saw its normal for it to take a long ass time to recieve. I should start a counter for every day that passes without an email LOL.